Sometimes it takes an expected event or situation to come into place in our lives for us to realize what our purpose is here. We are not here to be anything but Gods beloved children who everyday live out his love in our lives. We are here to spread his name and his purpose out to every single person we come in contact with. We are to love others with no hesitation. It is sad, but true, that often times as a Christian I settle back into “safe mode.” This is the mode where I know that I’M safe… and so therefore that much be all that matters right? I am dead wrong. Suddenly all at once I realize how lost I can become in that state of mind; the state of mind that I am truly all that matters in my own life… and that other peoples fate is their own problem, not mine. Out of nowhere every single one of my mistakes, faults, and failures come shooting into my mind at once. I retrace every moment in my life where I ran away from Jesus. Every situation I walked into knowing that it was a dangerous one. Every time I treated someone like they did not matter. Every moment I decided that my way was better, and that God had no say in my decisions. I cringe when I think of all the times I blatantly disobeyed. Every time my motives were of evil intent, all the actions that brought on pain, and the times of stress that were caused, completely, by my own foolishness. All these thoughts come crashing down like a wave, burying me in an overwhelming sense of fear and failure.
Yet all at once, just as fast as I fell I feel the loving and safe arms of my savior picking up my broken pieces. Gently and gracefully, he mends every single broken piece. In a moment of pure love, I am put back together. My body trembles and my eyes fill with tears. I can no longer feel anything but his arms around me. Suddenly, I am restored. Now my thoughts of failure and pain are replaced with hope and love. Love for my almighty father and the restorer of my broken heart. Hope for the plans he has for me, and for the moments to come. I am no longer in pain for myself, but in pain for others. The others who have never felt this kind of love. The countless lost who never find satisfaction, and are always searching for something more. My heart breaks for them, and my soul yearns for thier lives.
Lord, give me strength for the days that follow. May your light shine through me, and may your love be the foundation of my life. It is in your sons holy and beautiful name that I ask these things. Amen.
Only you can mend the broken heart
and cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinner's past
and set the captives free
Only you can take the widow's cry
and cause her heart to sing
Be the father to the fatherless
Our saviour and our king
-solution, Hillsong United.
