Sex

So i've been having lots of thoughts latley about my life and about the life that I am called to be living. To non-believers that statement most likey does not make much sense, and understandably so. To believers however, I have a feeling they will completly understand. The subject title of "sex" was not just used to prompt the opening of this blog, although i'm sure it does a good job of that as well. Instead i used it to narrow my thoughts down into a certain category. No, that does not mean that I plan to write about sex, however, it is in fact a part.

I have come to the realization that I have always used the fact that I will not have sex until I am married as a blanket to cover all other sexual acts or thoughts that have come into my mind and/or my heart over the last almost 19 years of my life. I think that what has happened to our society is we have turned sex into just a natural occurance that well... doesn't REALLY mean anything. Let me first start off by explaining my views on what sex is to me and maybe it will help you understand were I am coming from. I long for the day that I can say I DO to the man of my dreams and then... be able to give him all of me. Not just my hand in marriage and a promise to always stick by him, but also my mind, body, and soul. I want to be completly his, for this is Gods plan. He created someone that is perfect for ME, and I for him. I cannot think of anything that would be any more special for me to do on that day. So... ok, that sounds good so where does the problem come in? Well... anyone who has ever experenced a longing for affection or just attention of the opposite sex (which I should mention is almost every single person) would understand exactly what I am about to say.

God has made us with a sexual desire and passion for this very idea of affection and attention. HOWEVER, there is a time under heaven for this just like crying, laughing, mourning, and rejoicing. The time is NOT whenever you FEEL like you MIGHT be in love. or... the other person told you that if you loved them then you would have sex with him. Because honey... if they loved you, they would honor and respect you, and wait. Now all of this being said I would hate it if someone just assumed I was making all of this up so... lets go to the manual and see what it has to say.1CORINTHIANS 6:12 talks of sexual immorality, and Gods stand on it. I'm not going to share the whole passage with you, but I will share the last paragraph. Verse 18 says "Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a man commits are outside his body, but he who sins sexually sins against his own body. 19Do you not know that YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, who is in you, whom you have recieved from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body." I gotta tell you... that very last line really convicts me and gets me thinking alot. We are not our own. I think as americans alot of the time we are always making excuses for ourselves and for our actions, and many times we just say HEY, it's my life. But.. is it really? Are you really your own? I believe that I belong to my creator and I just pray that I don't screw up all the wonderful things he has blessed me with.

I write this today with a heart that is broken for all those who have crossed the line. But also, for my ownself who at times is guility of thinking and acting asif I do not belong to the Lord and that I was not bought at such a precious price. Christs blood was spilled out so that I could live, and live without the barring of sin on my back. He took that from me... but it was not without a price. I think the most beautiful thing about our God is his unfailing and undieing grace. Grace that covers even the darkest sins. And for all the people out there who feel they have failed because they have had sex, or maybe something even worse than that... I have news for you... you can be wiped clean. His grace can wipe you clean and restore you. Restore you completly and make you new. We are all apart of Gods wonderful creation, and he wants nothing more than for you to be his child and to love him. It is hard to believe that something so amazing can be so simple.

God bless each and everyone of you. The lord is working in my life more than I have ever felt him working. It is an exciting feeling, but a scary one at the same time. I pray that you would find the God that loves you, and wants to make you whole again. And maybe you've had him... maybe you've become distant or even lost sight of him. But friend i'll tell you this... everytime you think that God has left your side... loo
k around. It was not God that walked away from you, but you that walked away from God